The Other Reality...

I've just finished talking to Luke

i dont mind saying his name cause i know he doesnt mind having it said

and i talked to him about the dream i had last night

because this dream was quite possibly the most epic

and real feeling dream i've ever had ever

when i awoke i was in a total state of terror and excitement

and my heart was beating really fast

i dont want to have to retype it all

so i'll just copy what i wrote to luke

bare in mind that this was directed at him

so do not be confused by the context of the writing

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Well i'd love to stay and chat but.. you're a total bitch says:

i have to tell you about the dream i had last night

it was the most realistic, visually and sensorally fantastic dream i've ever had

and it had everything thought out

see i was 20

and i was in an international school in iran

cause by then iran and palistine arent in war anymore

(or so they say)

and a massive and very expensive school was built in iran

a few hundred meters off the border of palistine

and eveyones having fun and enjoying this fantastic facility

that is world renowned

and for some reason u and amy and siv are there

we're in the outer yard on campus

to our right is the massive main building

and to the left are dorms and a massive church

and a siren goes off

and everyone panics

cause we dont even know what it is

but u see a large light object i nthe sky

and it comes towards us

hit the ground about 20 meters away and theres a hughe explosion

it was an artillery shell

and the girls freak out

and we get bombarded

everywhere

bomb goin on

and i know i was terrified

it seemed so real

and another comes straight at us

and u and i dive backwards

but the girls are hit

and decintegrated

but trheres no time to mourne

cause more are coming

and we fucking run

towards the church side

and its like playing black ops

and its a cutscene

your just running while bombs are goin off

and the camera turns

to show u a massive rocket hitting the main building

and shit like that

and we run

to the nearby neighbourhood

and people have abandonened their houses

abandoned*

and we grab as much suplies as we can

find some rifles

mines the scar f-5

yours is an m4 carbine

and its like a red dawn situation

the palitinians are coming

and we're gonna survive

and then i woke up

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it happened as is

and it made me feel all confused as to its meaning all day

but then again dreams dont need to have a meaning =P

thats is all i wanted to share

its fucking hot

ALL THE TIME

Sunshine on a Rainy Night

for all intensive purposes

its meant to be summer

or atleast

just

but

even though it is summer

the days get colder

and moreso do the nights and wet

very wet

i've grown into the habit of going out at night with my guitar

and meeting out with the same two guys

at parks

mostly the one near my house

and we'd sit around

and play

and more often then not

there isnt a cloud in the sky

The Sky at night

-A window into the vastnest that is space

where all the stars and dark form a dotted cover

one that leaves me in absolute amazement

everytime i look up

-A reminder that we are but the smallest most

insignificant piece of nothing compared to the universe

dont forget it ...

the first night that we went out there

i saw 4 shooting stars

it was the first time ever

that i can remember anyway

and it absolutely amazed me

the sky amazes me

and never ceases

to do so

today i went with just one of them

to the park on Wilson road

across the road from the mosque

it was nice

it was raining but

so we took shelter under the

play house thingy

no guitars today

we just talked

reminisced about older better days

talked about how complicated things have gotten

and just really had a proper talk about life

and what aspects we have

it was nice

and heavy at the same time

Why does life have to be like this?

is it...

because of god?

fuck no what does that lazy fuck have to do with it?

because of society?

well yes because society has set these paradigms that make it almost impossible to handle being alive anymore

because of my parents?

well they are annoying but they just want what they think is best (key words: what they think)

its

because of me

and i hate to do this

but its because of my melancholy

^ thats right im talking about Hamlet

but different its modern

its me

seeing opportunities

knowing that things need to be done

but they arent getting done

i'm not lazy

its just

that when it comes to these things

i get confused

i think too far ahead

and i think too much

and then i fail

and i loose my chance

completely

and it hurts

evey single day

it hurts

more and more

and theres nothing i can do

not yet

just have to live with it for now

its not just me

alot of people feel this way

and all i can to you is

that this is life

you cant change that

even if its shit

to some unexplainable extent

you cant change the fact that this is how life is

so people turn to drastic measures

if your thinking about it

don't

don't even

go there

life sucks fair enough

and i know its chliche

but ending it early

is not the answer

and i'll tell you why

its not because of how it'll effect those around

no fuck that who are they to get in your way?

its not because 'life is precious' fucking hell thats a load of shit

thousands of people die every day

MILLIONS of living things die every second

life is not fucking precious

and if it is WHO TO?

no

you dont want to kill yourself

because

it wont help

it wont help you

life is shit

and you cant change that

killing yourself wont change the fact that life is shit

you will be helping noone

especially not yourself

and besides

there is always time

there are always options

to find the light within the drab dark

i find that at night

things are clearer to see

in my head

i walk around during the day

and see colours

lots of colours

but colours get in the way

its a distraction

at night

i can see true form

what things really are

what is ugly

and what is not

and in my head

i can see this

and determine between the two

it helps

navigate the whirlpool ocean of my life

theres no much i need to do now that the hsc is over

so much

1-exercise

2-lose weight (as a result of exercise)

3-get a job

4-get better at guitar

5-get better at singing

6-move out

7-lose my job

8-move back in

9-return my shit to school

10-Get The Girl

and on that note

i've gtg

bye for now

The Internal Clock

short

short

short

short

Short

ShorT

SHORT

SHORT!

...

post today

all i'll say is

i used this blog

as the basis for my short story in the hsc

belonging =D

and

if the readers of my blog/creative writing

happen to be the same person/people

then know that yes

alot of it is from here

and i can assure you that it is all my my own workings

my own expulsions from my own mind

and incase someone else has gone and done the same thing

id like to say

20903961

Minh Luan Nguyen

but you can call me Danny =D

btw i believe its not against the rules to use

my own blog post as my creative writing

since i was the one creating it

think of it as...

i have been working on my creative writing for about one and a half years now

^^

Sometimes The Day Begins With Nothing to Look Forward to...

today was the first test of many to come

english paper 1

the test all students would be doing at the exact same time as us

and i was adequately prepared

recently all my post have been...

well dark to say the least

and well things just were not looking good at all

at all

but sometimes the universe can throw you a good one

one that you can hit straight out of the ball park

and thats what i got

there is a person i know

who

is just amazing

in every single way

she is utterly amazing

and i have no other way of putting it

at all

so

i havent seen her in some time

i have missed her dearly

i have looked forward to our reunion today

in fact it was the only thing i wanted to go to school for today

to see people

and mostly to see her

and for good reason

she came over and gave me a belated birthday present

4 months

but whos counting

point is

i completely did not expect it

we went in did the test

and well

i really couldnt think in the test about anything but her

and so the creative side in me came out and i aced it

came home

and the present

came with a card

that was in the form of palm cards

all neatly typed up

with her message to me in it

and it almost made me cry

you words were beautiful

and i wont forget it

but as if it werent sufficient enough

i still had a present

and i opened it

and found

the most thoughtful and wonderful gift i have ever received by anyone

ever

and well

i dont know how to say it really

but i know your reading

and i want you to know

that you

are the most

wonderful

beautiful

thoughtful

otherwords that end in 'ful'

amazing

awesome person

i have ever had the

opportunity to meet

i love you dearly more then you'll ever know

and if i had to choose one person i'd see the end of the world with it'd be you

so

thank you

from the bottom of my heart

because

you give me hope

when times are hard

and you told me that

even when theres nothing to look forward to

there it is

right in front of me

bright and vivid

quietly waiting

just as i imagined it would be...

lots of love always

Danny

Even the Sheep Are Beast...

And There It Is

another year

but this is different

this time

we're not coming back

oh the past few months have been

...

enlightening

oh how we wish things were different

but you cant change time

time wont change

the arrogant fuck

and time wont change

because people don't

you can only put up a front for so long

after which you will be exposed

so the training wheels come off

all of them

get back up on your feet idiot

now is not a time to fall

but

now that they have no wheels to keep them stable

the boundaries drop

and so the mask

'look who it is!'

'wait'

'no its not is it?'

no its not...

its not who you thought it was

you want it to be

but its not

they are perfect

perfect perfect perfect

in your head

perfect

the friends you truly do not deserve

so good to you

that even you can dissmiss their flaws

but what if they aren't as perfect as they seem?

oh we like to pretend

but they slip up

and the glass breaks

and u can see

behind the mask

sometimes the mask will break off gradually

and you begin to see the ugly truth behind it

and sometimes

the mask just falls off in one go

leaving you shocked at what you see

so shocked you cant react

and what do i do?

when i'm in an alleyway

with no possible escape

because i thought i was running away

from something

but it didnt matter

because i was running with you...

then you pull out the knife and i'm now running from you

how ironic

i guess something that takes SIX YEARS to learn

can be reversed

at the last second

and the sheep

will become the beast in the full moon

and the hunters in the eleventh hour

nature is a funny isn't it?

what is nature

nature is nature

but nature isnt

trees

and birds

and animals

and waterfalls

no

nature

is

lying

stealing

cheating

perverting

and back stabbing

this is nature

human nature

and it is imbued into human society

and has been for so long

i therefore cant blame you for being that way

and the fucked thing is

i saw

all of this coming

and there was nothing i could do

just a sitting home on the coast

watching as the tsunami came ever closer

and the people sent to protect him...

abandon him

so save their own hides

so sweet the sound of silence

i must admit

there are a FEW people i'd miss

people who are truly honest to their nature

there is one who i know is definitely going to be missed

she is a friend who i can trust

who i can talk to all the time

i've mentioned her in the blog before

but in the end of the year

shes leaving

for Japan

and Shannon

i must say your words of wisdom

calm wit

and beauty will definitely be missed

more then you'll ever know

and i wish you all the luck in the world

for your endeavours

you deserve only the best

well that concludes the high school chronicles

in a few weeks

is the HSC test

where the education big wigs

pitt student against student

to watch the suffering and make bets on who dies first

...

should be fun

The Paradoxitaur

The Paradoxitaur: a mythical creature that only exist if you do not believe in it!

-Demetri Martin

Fantastic!

so

life

has been getting

well...

Difficult

i guess to say in the least

human emotions are what bare me down

human emotions

that have the ability to make even the strongest man

weak

and cry

and as I stand and blink my way through my problems

nothing gets resolved

i am the Hamlet of My receding Denmark

even now

as I think of it

the pain hits the eyes

but the brain says I'm a man

'This nonsense must stop!'

and so instead we die a little inside

I wish it wasnt like this

and i dont know if i'll be able to handle it

i mean imagine everything that could go wrong

going wrong

ALL AT ONCE

wrong

wrong

wrong

wrong

wrong

WRONG!

That's What They Say

That's What They'll Tell You

...

Accept it

but the minor parts in the play speak out of Term

the adlibbing is out of control

and it gets harder to direct the epic theatre massacre

so just go with it

go home

take the pills to sleep

lay in bed

pills dont work

and pretend to dream

I hope they like it

I Really Do...

Then He Initiates Something / Intern She / Saves Him Internally Thereafter.

I / Can Anticipate Not Truly / Seeing This And Nevertheless Dying / Inside Turmoil.

I'm / Just Utterly Stupid Too.

What Are Not Truths / Tend Only / Lean Ears And Voice, Eventually/ I Try / And Lack Luster

*stops here*

so there my humanity on a plate

deal with it

I'll have to anyway

Just wish it was easier.

and i could tell you your making a mistake

but your happy

who am I to get in the way of that?

ON LIGHTER NEWS

a very good friend of mine

i''ve mentioned her before

the 'gamer in disguise'

although shes shown her true colours and is no longer 'in disguise'

has finished her music HSC exam and said its done great

and I'm sure it has

i'm so very happy for her

and wish her well in her future endeavours

^^

So

recently i've been talking to this awesome friend of mine in year 11

shes one of the only year 11ners who i can even stand to look at

all the rest

are either too stupid to realise they needed to leave

and ergo are stupid ass fucking louts who do nothing but what they want to do regardless on consequence on others

OR

are fucking idiot posers who think they're cool by acting like a fucking 'scene' person

or something stupid like that

basically dressing up like an asshole

thinking its cool

and thinking they're cool because they pretend to not care that others might think they're cool

(even though they dont)

that is my breakdown on the entire 11th grade

deal with it

so newho

this girl

Jessie M.

i mention her name in the hope that she'll read this and get excited

turns out she enjoys a good zombie invasion survival plan as much as i do

now if you have read my previous blogs

you'll know that i've recently had dreams about zombie invasions

viral infections that spread the zombie disease etc

point is

we got it all planed out so yeah

and the more u talk about it

the more you actually want it to happen

i'm sure we;re wrong and it wont happen as we say it will

but who cares its nice to pretend

makes me forget my other problems anyways

so thankyou Jessie ^^

a friend of mine is going through

a similar problem as me

but dare i say

without the added knives

to him

if he were to read this

i say

hang in there buddy ^^

I WAS THINKING!

i've been watching alot of Demetri Martin lately

and the guy is a genius

i mean granted sometimes he makes lame jokes

but he is really talented

and pretty much can do everything

and i was wondering

what would life be like

if i had the power to make anything i wanted happen

anything

even if it disregards the bounds of physics

magic =D

now

i know

if i were to destroy the bounds of physics even for a small amount

it may well cause a rip in the quantum layer

causing the small quantum rips that form to get larger (as strings cant stop all of them)

and then open a wormhole to another dimension and cause the two (or more) to collide

and BANG

second big bang

who knows what could happen!

but enough technical shit

how fucking awesome would that be?

'oh shit im late for school!'

*ZIP* turn back time

NOW IM NOT!

of course then theres the paradoxical nature of time travel

SHUTUP DANNY

newho

'oh shit i forgot to get such and such a present!'

*PUFF* they dont exist anymore and never did

wait

i mean

*PUFF* A WILD PRESENT APPEARS!

'Quickly catch it!'

point is

like would be so much more easier

ah wells

we cant get what we want

i'll leave you with a quote from Bright Eyes

Center of the World:

In the middle of the day

when you drive home to your place from that job that makes you sleep
back to the thoughts that keep you awake long after
night has come to claim any light that still remains
in the corner of the frame that you put around her face.
Two pills just weren’t enough.
The alarm clock is going off,
but you are not waking up.
This isn’t happening, happening, happening, happening, happening. It is.

What is In the NAME...

Name?

i have none

not for you people anyways

but there is one name that replays in my head

and i must say i neglected to mention her in my previous blog of beautiful people

BECAUSE

SHE should already know that she is completely and utterly AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL

and its

well i mean ridiculously beautiful so beautiful

and she just

SO BEAUTIFUL that it hurts

anywho

this girl

did complain a bit

and made me feel so bad about it

even though i told her that she should know that i already love her

*sigh*

i know your reading this

and i want u to know u cut me real bad there

i died a little inside

*sigh*

but no

i have no words to describe her

she takes my breath away

and i'm lost for words

she is...

well beautiful as i've mentioned

kind

smart

hilarious

strong

but lazy

dependable (most of the time)

someone u can trust

someone u can lean on if it gets hard

and in return likes to lean back

she laughs and i laugh cause she's just like that

she doesn't like being still for too long

like me

sometimes she'll just be completely high

and go on laughing rages

she is

someone i like

someone i cherish

someone i get excited to see

someone i depend on

someone i

love

and she is just super-crazy-mega-amazing

and i am honoured to have her in my life

you know who u are

and this ENTIRE blog post is dedicated completely to you

usually a i do a 'I was Thinking' bit

but i'm only thinking about u ^^

there u go are u happy now?