Even the Sheep Are Beast...

And There It Is

another year

but this is different

this time

we're not coming back

oh the past few months have been

...

enlightening

oh how we wish things were different

but you cant change time

time wont change

the arrogant fuck

and time wont change

because people don't

you can only put up a front for so long

after which you will be exposed

so the training wheels come off

all of them

get back up on your feet idiot

now is not a time to fall

but

now that they have no wheels to keep them stable

the boundaries drop

and so the mask

'look who it is!'

'wait'

'no its not is it?'

no its not...

its not who you thought it was

you want it to be

but its not

they are perfect

perfect perfect perfect

in your head

perfect

the friends you truly do not deserve

so good to you

that even you can dissmiss their flaws

but what if they aren't as perfect as they seem?

oh we like to pretend

but they slip up

and the glass breaks

and u can see

behind the mask

sometimes the mask will break off gradually

and you begin to see the ugly truth behind it

and sometimes

the mask just falls off in one go

leaving you shocked at what you see

so shocked you cant react

and what do i do?

when i'm in an alleyway

with no possible escape

because i thought i was running away

from something

but it didnt matter

because i was running with you...

then you pull out the knife and i'm now running from you

how ironic

i guess something that takes SIX YEARS to learn

can be reversed

at the last second

and the sheep

will become the beast in the full moon

and the hunters in the eleventh hour

nature is a funny isn't it?

what is nature

nature is nature

but nature isnt

trees

and birds

and animals

and waterfalls

no

nature

is

lying

stealing

cheating

perverting

and back stabbing

this is nature

human nature

and it is imbued into human society

and has been for so long

i therefore cant blame you for being that way

and the fucked thing is

i saw

all of this coming

and there was nothing i could do

just a sitting home on the coast

watching as the tsunami came ever closer

and the people sent to protect him...

abandon him

so save their own hides

so sweet the sound of silence

i must admit

there are a FEW people i'd miss

people who are truly honest to their nature

there is one who i know is definitely going to be missed

she is a friend who i can trust

who i can talk to all the time

i've mentioned her in the blog before

but in the end of the year

shes leaving

for Japan

and Shannon

i must say your words of wisdom

calm wit

and beauty will definitely be missed

more then you'll ever know

and i wish you all the luck in the world

for your endeavours

you deserve only the best

well that concludes the high school chronicles

in a few weeks

is the HSC test

where the education big wigs

pitt student against student

to watch the suffering and make bets on who dies first

...

should be fun

The Paradoxitaur

The Paradoxitaur: a mythical creature that only exist if you do not believe in it!

-Demetri Martin

Fantastic!

so

life

has been getting

well...

Difficult

i guess to say in the least

human emotions are what bare me down

human emotions

that have the ability to make even the strongest man

weak

and cry

and as I stand and blink my way through my problems

nothing gets resolved

i am the Hamlet of My receding Denmark

even now

as I think of it

the pain hits the eyes

but the brain says I'm a man

'This nonsense must stop!'

and so instead we die a little inside

I wish it wasnt like this

and i dont know if i'll be able to handle it

i mean imagine everything that could go wrong

going wrong

ALL AT ONCE

wrong

wrong

wrong

wrong

wrong

WRONG!

That's What They Say

That's What They'll Tell You

...

Accept it

but the minor parts in the play speak out of Term

the adlibbing is out of control

and it gets harder to direct the epic theatre massacre

so just go with it

go home

take the pills to sleep

lay in bed

pills dont work

and pretend to dream

I hope they like it

I Really Do...

Then He Initiates Something / Intern She / Saves Him Internally Thereafter.

I / Can Anticipate Not Truly / Seeing This And Nevertheless Dying / Inside Turmoil.

I'm / Just Utterly Stupid Too.

What Are Not Truths / Tend Only / Lean Ears And Voice, Eventually/ I Try / And Lack Luster

*stops here*

so there my humanity on a plate

deal with it

I'll have to anyway

Just wish it was easier.

and i could tell you your making a mistake

but your happy

who am I to get in the way of that?

ON LIGHTER NEWS

a very good friend of mine

i''ve mentioned her before

the 'gamer in disguise'

although shes shown her true colours and is no longer 'in disguise'

has finished her music HSC exam and said its done great

and I'm sure it has

i'm so very happy for her

and wish her well in her future endeavours

^^

So

recently i've been talking to this awesome friend of mine in year 11

shes one of the only year 11ners who i can even stand to look at

all the rest

are either too stupid to realise they needed to leave

and ergo are stupid ass fucking louts who do nothing but what they want to do regardless on consequence on others

OR

are fucking idiot posers who think they're cool by acting like a fucking 'scene' person

or something stupid like that

basically dressing up like an asshole

thinking its cool

and thinking they're cool because they pretend to not care that others might think they're cool

(even though they dont)

that is my breakdown on the entire 11th grade

deal with it

so newho

this girl

Jessie M.

i mention her name in the hope that she'll read this and get excited

turns out she enjoys a good zombie invasion survival plan as much as i do

now if you have read my previous blogs

you'll know that i've recently had dreams about zombie invasions

viral infections that spread the zombie disease etc

point is

we got it all planed out so yeah

and the more u talk about it

the more you actually want it to happen

i'm sure we;re wrong and it wont happen as we say it will

but who cares its nice to pretend

makes me forget my other problems anyways

so thankyou Jessie ^^

a friend of mine is going through

a similar problem as me

but dare i say

without the added knives

to him

if he were to read this

i say

hang in there buddy ^^

I WAS THINKING!

i've been watching alot of Demetri Martin lately

and the guy is a genius

i mean granted sometimes he makes lame jokes

but he is really talented

and pretty much can do everything

and i was wondering

what would life be like

if i had the power to make anything i wanted happen

anything

even if it disregards the bounds of physics

magic =D

now

i know

if i were to destroy the bounds of physics even for a small amount

it may well cause a rip in the quantum layer

causing the small quantum rips that form to get larger (as strings cant stop all of them)

and then open a wormhole to another dimension and cause the two (or more) to collide

and BANG

second big bang

who knows what could happen!

but enough technical shit

how fucking awesome would that be?

'oh shit im late for school!'

*ZIP* turn back time

NOW IM NOT!

of course then theres the paradoxical nature of time travel

SHUTUP DANNY

newho

'oh shit i forgot to get such and such a present!'

*PUFF* they dont exist anymore and never did

wait

i mean

*PUFF* A WILD PRESENT APPEARS!

'Quickly catch it!'

point is

like would be so much more easier

ah wells

we cant get what we want

i'll leave you with a quote from Bright Eyes

Center of the World:

In the middle of the day

when you drive home to your place from that job that makes you sleep
back to the thoughts that keep you awake long after
night has come to claim any light that still remains
in the corner of the frame that you put around her face.
Two pills just weren’t enough.
The alarm clock is going off,
but you are not waking up.
This isn’t happening, happening, happening, happening, happening. It is.